Morning After
Today I woke up with a song in my heart. I was relieved to have my house to my self.
Evicting Beth was no easy task. It was marred with tears and heart break. Well she did the crying. I on the other hand decided to take a calm approach to things. But I knew deep in my heart what I did and said was the right thing to do.
I hadn’t seen her for over 2 months; we haven’t talked about the issues we had from before. I really don’t know where she was coming from.
Do I care about her? I do. Though my feelings are not like they were. I remember the purity of my affection and adoration. I remember feeling on-top of the world and doing all I could to make her happy. All this changed when she began to be evasive. We never could get to spend as much time together as a healthy couple should. This lead to the point where she told me she needed a break. I thought she was joking. She wasn’t. She wanted me to wait for her while she was on a break. I said I would not and told her as much
She ended up calling me that day and telling me that she can’t live without me. So we met at a popular club and ended up going home together. We made commitments to each other.
Everything was lovely until six months later she forgot my birthday and later she forgot our first year anniversary. I was distressed. Our relationship was hanging on a string. She still didn’t make time for our relationship. So I opted out.
After several attempts on her part we ended up talking again and she made a commitment to the relationship that she would devote more time. This was also only short lived. We broke up this is detailed in this post and subsequent ones.
After reflecting deeply I realize that the fundamental issue was that Beth was lazy and this affected every part of our relationship. If she could only take more initiative and be more active than passive her other flaws would be easy to tolerate. But her laziness seems to be the chemical X that emphasizes all her other shortcomings. If she could only change.
Evicting Beth was no easy task. It was marred with tears and heart break. Well she did the crying. I on the other hand decided to take a calm approach to things. But I knew deep in my heart what I did and said was the right thing to do.
I hadn’t seen her for over 2 months; we haven’t talked about the issues we had from before. I really don’t know where she was coming from.
Do I care about her? I do. Though my feelings are not like they were. I remember the purity of my affection and adoration. I remember feeling on-top of the world and doing all I could to make her happy. All this changed when she began to be evasive. We never could get to spend as much time together as a healthy couple should. This lead to the point where she told me she needed a break. I thought she was joking. She wasn’t. She wanted me to wait for her while she was on a break. I said I would not and told her as much
She ended up calling me that day and telling me that she can’t live without me. So we met at a popular club and ended up going home together. We made commitments to each other.
Everything was lovely until six months later she forgot my birthday and later she forgot our first year anniversary. I was distressed. Our relationship was hanging on a string. She still didn’t make time for our relationship. So I opted out.
After several attempts on her part we ended up talking again and she made a commitment to the relationship that she would devote more time. This was also only short lived. We broke up this is detailed in this post and subsequent ones.
After reflecting deeply I realize that the fundamental issue was that Beth was lazy and this affected every part of our relationship. If she could only take more initiative and be more active than passive her other flaws would be easy to tolerate. But her laziness seems to be the chemical X that emphasizes all her other shortcomings. If she could only change.
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