Life after death

It has been a while since I last posted anything. I stopped because I felt that nothing interesting was happening in my life worth writing about..perhaps I became lazy. Anyway I intend to start posting again. I do believe there has been a turn around and my life is abit ore interesting.

KENYAN POLICE BRUTALITY

Though many of you may have already seen this video here is the UNCUT version showing government resources being used as an instrument of fear

Crank dat...African style

NEW BEER DIET

glumbert - The New Beer Diet

Newness

Early August was a turning point in my life. I have had to make certain decisions that have been life changing up till now. I quit my temporary Job with Coca-Cola to Join the public sector for some stability. The stability in question is to do with having a consistent salary, of which I have had to take a significant pay cut. based on the culture here it appears that I'll have to take a while to make up for my income loss by waiting for promotions and the yearly increments.

In the mean time I have had to seriously restructure the way i live my life.The largest sacrifice is cutting down on my living expenses which I seem to be failing at doing. These adjustments have of course impacted my self confidence and self esteem as it has always been nice to have lots of extra money to spend. I currently forsee a situation whereby I have to seek other sources of money.

So far my investments aren't doing to bad....I'm currently +25% above current inflation. this doesn't put immediate cash in my pocket but gives my a good base for further capital gain as my investments are mainly in the stock exchange

Gratitude

I am grateful for my family that loves me unconditionally even when I feel that I don’t belong they tirelessly bare with my short comings

I am grateful for the wonderful relationship I have with Noni. I know that we still have a long way to go in developing something that will last a life time. Thank you for being there for me when I was in crisis. You are a true friend and lover.

I am grateful to God for the new opportunity that he has availed to me. I pray that I may be able to progress and achieve my life goals. I pray that I may be able to see through to the very end the things that I have started.

Love, sex and pain

It's not long ago that I wrote about perspective. My fear was losing control of the choices and giving myself to someone who is unappreciative of my sacrifice.

The woman I love and respect wants some time apart in order to decide if she really wants a relationship with me. Her fear to commit herself to me (us.) Her fears are that she has let too many men into her life, who have ended up disappointing her. Sure I understand her concerns...But knowing all this she still ended up getting intimate with me.

I get a sense that she is in crisis, in terms of reconciling her ideal life and her reality. She is also faced with career issues where her profession is not propelling her to the space she wants to be in. I have further observed that she is constantly tormented by the challenge of her best friends,who have settled into happy, stable and financially secure relationships.

As a man in her life I am faced with my own challenges. My career has only just begun to take a turn for the better after being in and out of contractual work. I am not in a position to offer her the life she wants...to take away her fears of uncertainty about her financial future. I wish it was not so but I can only offer what I have. I do not want to sell her a dream because I have to manage her expectations.

I fear based on my financial challenges, I will not be able to keep her. She like others before her will leave me because of what I bring to the table...nothing that supports modern day challenges. It is a sad reality but I must accept my limitations. I will not fight to keep her; I will let her do what she must for her own growth. I on the other hand continue to be frustrated in my quest for a life partner. It is getting to the point where I want to give up and live my life alone....